MEREDITH: [narrating] "At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

From Grey's Anatomy...

Organ Donation Pledge...

Just wondering that have you ever thought of pledging for organ donation when you are dead??
A lot of ppl dun i guess...i tink we can still contribute to the ppl even when we are dead i.e. through organ donation..Think about it...Such an act of kindness will help dozens of ppl in one way or another..My fren recently brought this up in our conversation and mayb we could make this thing a necessity for those pursuing the medical field...Health related professionals surely know the importance and require no further explanation from others(I'm saying this cos they should know better about the importance)..Also, anyone can pledge regardless of whether you are a doctor or not...Just that do you have the courage to pledge???Do you want to pledge???Do you need to pledge???Think about it...

For further info, pls log on to http://www.organdonation.com.my
You can even do it online nowadays...Just follow the steps there... Happy deciding...

i tot i've changed for better...
But recently my old bad temperament hit back...
i dunno is it i'm really stressed-out or jus throwing temper for no reason...
i jus dun feel stressed-out mentally but physically i was down with a 3-day diarrhea...
i became so tired and endless sleep would be the best medicine but i've too many tasks at hand...
so basically i really lacking rest for my body...
I remember when i've hurted someone important to me last time, she once told me "no matter how many times i've forgiven you, you are not forgotten for what you've done..."
In short, forgiven but not forgotten...
No matter how many times you say sorry, you'll never cure a broken heart...
what can be done then???I guess nothing can be done..the best is not to jump on conclusion and make things clear before accusing somebody..Does prevention is better than cure apply here???I just dunno what's wrong with me???
am i really that kind of person who "jump on conclusion"???
am i that kind of person who jus like to "merajuk" for no reason???
I just can't sort out myself for the time being but guess nobody knows better what i need to do with myself...
This is supposed to be something i'll only write in my diary but wonder if i'll feel better penning it here...jus trying out blogging...True meaning of blogging still unknown to me..sth new and fresh...but anyway i enjoy penning down things that i come across in my life..

Hospitalized...{Part 2}
A change of perception overtime...
I shall proceed to share my bitter experience with you, no change of content but a change of perception or point of view over the stay..It's kinda funny that my thinking change to a different angle after attended lectures from dr mary through out de current semester. Sorry it's dinner time and my current script is still in the process..Jus post this one to keep you waiting..but i know you'll wait no matter how long...happy study week to my coursemates and fellow rakan seperjuangan kat universiti tempatan...Take care...
-shmily-

HospitALIZED...
An experience that MONEY can't buy...
My stay at Hospital is a "nightmare" or should i say a window for me to see the saddening condition at third class wards in government hospital. I was admitted because of a suspected dengue fever. Before being brought to the third class ward I was left resting with drip in the A&E department bed for few hours due to over-populated ward. I was drowsy and half awake when a nurse approached me and wheel-chaired me to the ward i was about to stay for another 3 days. When i got there, i was telling myself "Oh dear, dun tell me i was gonna sleep at the walkway with no proper ventilation." And yes indeed, i was told to lie on a bed positioned at the entrance to a 3rd class ward. Initially, I thought this could be temporary and I would be given a proper place of rest when the procedures was completed. To my horror, it lasted one whole day - my first 24 hrs. I was new there and know nothing about the things I was about to experience. Nurses took my blood samples every few hours for tests and they pricked me hard. The first few painful experiences made me freaked out everytime a nurse got near me. Then came the night where my sleep was greatly disturbed by another old man lying in the middle of the third class ward. He kept everyone awakes that night by his "howling" I would say. I was rather drowsy but could still hear his voice that kept repeating "Let me out, let me out in hokkien"..Then replied a middle-aged man sitting near his caged bed "Go to hell!!!! Don't make a fuss, just go to hell!!! in hokkien" That was enough to irritate me and made me feeling worse than before being admitted to the hospital.
Early the second day i was awaken by the nurse on duty to take my blood sample. I was shocked to see her taking my blood without taking proper precautions - she did not wear gloves when withdrawing my blood. I told her i scared and requested her to do so. Right after me, she went on to other patients and took their blood with the similar way. I was so disappointed that precaution steps was not taken when dealing with blood samples. Based on that incident, i cannot convince myself that they are professionally trained nurses. Frankly speaking I doubted the professionality. -----to be continued-----

An Introduction...
This is the first post that i've ever posted...SHMILY is a blog dedicated to my love ones - all my beloved friends and family...SHMILY means See How Much I Love You...Behind these wonderful words lies a lot of loving memories that always keep me smiling...